I am ... CONFUSION
On Monday you feel like you can take over the world and by Wednesday night you’re wondering if you’re doing the right thing at all. As a twenty-something woman in this fast-paced, ‘no days off’ world I’m constantly questioning if I’m on the right path. I hear stories about successful people who started off as one thing and ended as another which can be inspiring for a split second but when you’re once again faced with your own reality of ‘WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING SIS?!’ it can be pretty damn confusing and overwhelming to say the least.
On the outside looking in we think people have it all together. We believe they got to where they are by knowing exactly what they wanted to do with their lives - but if you have the chance to REALLY get to know their story (I mean all the ups and downs, not the highlight reel you see on social media) you’ll quickly find out… none of us know shit and we’re all just winging it.
As frustrating and draining as it may be I’m learning to lean into those moments and take them for what they are. They’re the moments we can use to reconnect with our dreams and goals and get all the crazy ideas out on paper. They’re the moments we can use to do something out of the ordinary like trying a ceramics class or taking a midday hike (sorry ya’ll LA is really getting to me) to get you to where you need to be. When you’re truly following your path there will be moments of resistance (word to Auntie O) and it’s okay to feel them in all of it’s entirety whether it lasts one day or one year.
Some days we really just won’t know what way to go.. and that’s okay because that’s the journey of life and we’re all trying to discover our true callings … which honestly is just to BE. BE your emotions BE your dreams ...BE you. That’s the best thing you can be in this life.